the lost of yesterday has come back to haunt me

Where has those days gone to, that now i live to regret....

i'm still feeling repetitions of the past..
days are long...
and my body grows tired
times in life gets harder
and worst...
rekindle the past
why now.......

and to make things worst....
it seems like the lost of yesterday has
yet again rear its head and force me to lose again
for once....
lost..
hmph.... losing is not what i'm here for
but still.....
regret has never been this big a blow to me
*sigh*
what am i doin...
what was i thinking......
why am i in this....
things are gonna get out of hands.....
i'm very sure of it....
seems like yesterday......

but i sure hope that day will hold back...
and never come...

oh well.....
Come then.....
i'm ready
i hope....